Do you have that perfect place in your mind that you escape to when Life holds you a bit too tightly? You know, that place where you can just breathe and it seems nothing bad or stressful could ever exist? That place that releases your soul from the grip of the ups and downs, the traffic of the roads, and the traffic of your mind?
Well, I have that place. And in all my hours of worry and strife, I thought that place was just a mental glimpse of Heaven- a small picture existing only in my mind of what I could only hope for, but never see with these eyes. That is, until today...
I found that place of mine. It actually exists. It's really here. It's Winchester.
Just a one and a half hour long bus ride southeast from London, I was physically in My Place, my perfect glimpse of Heaven. No, I was IN Heaven. Everywhere I looked, I couldn't find a bad sight to see. The streets were lined with cozy, flower covered English brick town houses on cobblestone roads. The bakeries made the best tasting coffee cakes and chocolate croissants that ever graced my tongue. And the river- oh, the river! It gushed and whispered down the most perfect and quaint pathway that was lined with rose gardens and old brick cottages. The trail led to old Medieval palace ruins that you could roam. Stand on the actual site of ancient royal celebrations and weddings. Look up at the crumbling brick walls and imagine who else stood there- that exact spot- hundreds and hundreds of years ago and imagine what they saw...

People live there, you know. Real, live, actual people live in My Place, my perfect Heaven, that I thought was only in my mind. My heart couldn't understand why that wasn't my reality. "This is where I belong", my soul seemed to whisper to me over and over again as I walked those perfect trails and took in those perfect sights. Then why didn't I live there? Why wasn't that the place I could call home, and not fantasy? Why was my life thousands of miles away in the middle of worries and stress? Don't get me wrong, I love my home- that's where my family and everything important to me exists. But why couldn't all that exist here, in Winchester, where there seemed to be no place for those worries and stress?

My heart ached within me. It told me to come here. To go, leave my home. To come live my life serene. To give up all of what society tells me is most important- money, status, the American Dream- and to live and dwell in what is truly of value. And yet... my mind wondered... is it in Winchester that I truly belong? Or is Winchester simply the physical representation an unspoken, undescribed Place that my soul desires to dwell? Surely I would still not be truly free from the grips of Life, even in Winchester. I know that my reality really is where it's supposed to be.
But maybe... maybe my every day mental dwelling doesn't have to be dependent on my every day physical dwelling. It's not all or nothing. My choices aren't simply, one: continue to incoherently live the cluttered, busy, disconnected American life, or two: leave all I have, all I know behind and live life as if I were dancing to the beat of an island drum with beads in my hair.
No.
I have a choice, no matter where I am, to be free.
Sometimes we can't have a say in what life brings us. No matter how much we wish we could, some things simply aren't changeable by our power alone. But other things are. I might not be able to move anywhere in the world, get any job I so desire, or have those perfect relationships I've always dreamed of. But I
can choose to celebrate life right where I'm at. When everyone else is in a trance of their preoccupations of Life, I can choose to free my perspective and not be chained by all that busyness. Ultimately, I am the one who decides what I allow to influence my mind and my being. Is it going to be the never-ending web of empty, materialistic worldly goals and promises? Or is it going to be the freedom of the Spirit dwelling not only in my soul, but in my mind, giving me the eyes to see the blissful nature of whatever life I live?
Life is good, because God created it. So for once, why don't we try to take full advantage of the potential He's offering?
Even though Winchester, My Place, might not be my physical reality, I can take comfort in this one thing: it really exists. Maybe Heaven isn't as far away as we think...